Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Getting Ready To Ring In A New Year: The Year of Rebekah!


Well, I am still tickled "pink" at the news from CCAA and just thinking about them working their way through the stacks of dossiers until they get to ours makes me plum giddy with excitement! Our March Yahoo support group is buzzing with excitement too and we just can't wait to see the face of our child in 2009!!!!!! So, as we lift our glasses of sparkling grape juice tonight in the Appleton home, I hope you will join us in toasting in this great New Year. May we ALL be blessed with happiness, good health, safety, prosperity, and the joy of family. We're waiting for you Rebekah!!!!
Added Later:
Tonight I was listening to a speech by Alan Osmond about his life dealing with Multiple Scolrosis (I know I misspelled this). Anyway it was a very moving speech and one thing he said about dealing with the hardships in life went something like this, "We are not human beings who have spiritual experience, but are spiritual beings having human experiences." This really made me think. As children of a loving Heavenly Father, we are spiritual beings sent to this earth to learn and grow and yes, even to face hardships, but we have to meet this human experiences and come out on the other side of them a better and stronger person. I hope I can remember that when I want to look at hard times and wonder, "Why me?" Another Alan Osmond pointed out was that asking why me? only brings you down. We have to realize that any hardship is just OUR OWN personal chance to grow stronger as a person.He also quoted a doctor that pointed out a study about people who were diagnosed with serious illnesses. 75% had a better quality of life and responded better to treatments because of prayer in their lives. So.....with that said.....I am a little more focused on looking at how this long wait has made me a stronger, more patient person; ready to be a better mom to our daughter. It has made Doug and I more of a team and has made our marriage stronger. Oh, and after I left Alan Osmond's website, I looked at Jay Osmond's and he had a couple of quotes I'd like to share too:
"Trials in life should make us better--not bitter."
"Sometimes God lets us fall on our backs so we can look up." (Look towards a loving Heavenly Father and ask for his help.)
I hope I can be more spiritual this New Year as I prepare to be a mommy.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Look At Our Referral Calendar!!!!!


Well our agency emailed us and told us that it is official that CCAA finished the February 2006 LIDs and are now working on the March 2006. We took the red marker and marked off the days. Look at the April 5th date with the little heart on it.....THAT's OUR LID! Now if CCAA will just kick it into high gear and match all of March!!!! YAY!

OH MY GOSH!


Well, the adoption world is buzzing with the latest information: The CCAA has matched through February 28, 2006 which means they are now moving on to match the people logged in during March 2006. We belong to the yahoo group for the Marching Pandas even though our LID is 04/05/06. We are so excited to be at this point because now they only have to get through a month of dossiers before they dust the dust off of ours and match us to our baby girl! WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!! We aren't quite sure how big the month of March is in terms of how many people are awaiting referrals but we are praying that it won't take them long to get through this month and on to us. Our friends in NC (Tonja and Robbie) should get their referral next since they are LID 03/03/06 and there are others that we have met online and are excited for too! We are also allowing ourselves to get a little excited about it all (although still cautiously, but excited just the same). I told Tonja this morning that I feel like some old bear coming out of a long Winter hibernation and finally getting to feel Spring again! I haven't allowed myself to get excited about a baby in quite a while in an effort to guard my heart and even though I might still need to be careful with my excitement, I can't help but celebrate this milestone! Oh please let them hurry through March!!!!!!!
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Saturday, December 27, 2008

Rebekah's Cat-sisters Love Their New Condo!






Well, as you can see from the pictures, our cats, Tabitha, Savannah, and Chelsea LOVE their new perch/condo we gave them for Christmas. Tabitha loves the big round one you get inside while Chelsey prefers to shoot up to the top of the thing and look down on her kingdom. Savannah will lay on the big round one that Tabitha gets inside. You know, there was a time when I would make fun of people who bought these things for their cats and would say, "How can people spend so much for plywood with carpet on it?" Oh my goodness.....what are people saying about us? hahahahahahahahaha Oh well....they are our babies and babies need toys, right???? At least that's what I'm telling myself! hahahahahahahahaha Oh, by the way...Tabitha is the calico, Chelsea is the black and white tuxedo cat, and Savannah is the southern belle of the family; the little gray sweet baby.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas From The Appletons

Well, here I am sitting beside the beautiful Christmas tree, thinking about all that I have to be thankful for and all the wonderful gifts that I have in this life. I am truly blessed to have a family and a home and a wonderful loving husband. I am thankful for my job, my talents, my health, my education, our sweet pets, the many many luxuries we have and often take for granted. Life is good! I can't help but also think about that little girl that will hopefully come into our lives this new year. Oh how I look forward to meeting this little sweetie who we are going to love so very very much! I cannot wait to look into her eyes and hold her close to my heart and KNOW that this is my daughter; my little girl.......well actually, to be more precise and correct: OUR DAUGHTER; OUR LITTLE GIRL (sometimes mommies just get overcome with so much love, we forget to include daddies in on our joy! hahahahaha). I am so looking forward to raising her in our loving home, teaching her to enjoy life, providing structure and guidance, and rejoicing in her many many accomplishments! I look forward to next year having baby toys beneath our tree, watching those Christmas cartoons with her, taking her to see Santa, dressing her in a new Christmas outfit, getting up with her on Christmas morning to open presents, taking her to Uncle Tony's and Aunt Missy's house for a yummy breakfast of oyster soup and fried oysters (ok, gerber baby food for her! hahahahahaha). Oh I just look forward to singing her Christmas carols and just being her Mommy! I also look forward to seeing my sweet hubby being a Daddy to her. He is going to be an awesome Daddy! So...........until then, my sweet child, I hope and pray with every ounce of my "mommy heart" that you are safe and warm and that your tears are dried and your fears calmed until we are there to do that for you! I pray that there are people in your life who are loving you until you are placed in our arms......you may not be here with us my darling child, but you are in your mommy's heart; kept safe and warm and loved. I can feel your sweet spirit and I know that I am your mother. You are my daughter, now, forever, and for eternity!!!! Hugs and kisses to you Rebekah and Merry Christmas to you my little peanut!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Celebrating 8 Years of Marriage!

Well, today Doug and I are celebrating our 8th Wedding Anniversary! WOW! It certainly is wonderful to be married to your best friend and even though some times were rough for us, we worked through a lot of obstacles and came out on the other side closer and as a team! We have also had to endure a lot together as we have faced this whole adoption journey. It has been one of the hardest things we have had to face but TOGETHER we will make it through all of this waiting and tears and frustration and one day we WILL stand together as they hand us our daughter! I'm looking forward to all of the future years with Doug as my husband.....I'm sure we will face hard times and things won't always be rosy and perfect, but I can't think of any one that I would rather go through life with than my Douggie. I love you honey! Happy Anniversary!

Friday, December 19, 2008

Memory Lane




After the last post, I was sitting here trying to think of my favorite childhood toys and possessions. My all time favorite thing was a wooden table and two chairs that my Daddy made for me one Christmas when money was tight and he had to be out of work for months with a back injury. I know I got a doll that year too (I ALWAYS got a new doll at Christmas)but the thing I remembered the most was that table and chairs. I had an old clubhouse out in the back yard and that set was PERFECT for my clubhouse. How in the world did Daddy make that? He was truly talented with stuff like that! I wish I had it now!
Anyhow, as far as store-bought stuff, my favorite toy was the yellow Fisher Price dollhouse! I also had a Chrissy doll that the hair could be grown long or shortened. She had a button on her belly that you pressed to do the hair length. I also remember my favorite lunchbox growing up was a Bionic Woman lunchbox. I loved that show (still do and am wishing it would be released on DVD soon) and I think I had the lunchbox when I was in 3rd or 4th grade. I wish I had saved that one too but I'm sure it would be rusted whole by this point. I'm hoping to one day run across one of those! I would really use to carry my lunch to school in! hahahahahaha Oh the kids would LOVE that! Anyhow, that was fun to think about my younger years and the toys that made me happy!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Our Hallmark Ornament This Year! MOO!


I don't know how many of you played with Fisher Price toys when you were younger, but they were my favorite and every year my brother, Tony, and I would get a set. My first was the Fisher Price dollhouse with the yellow roof. Oh how I LOVED that thing! In fact I have always hoped to find one somewhere that I could get just for myself! hahahahahaha Anyhow, I was so happy to find the Fisher Price Farm as a Hallmark Ornament this year! It even makes the mooing sound when you open the barn door! Ahhhhhhhh the memories of childhood! I just LOVE this thing....I swear I think I'm going to wear the door out before Christmas is over! hahahahahahaha You have to find joy in the simple pleasures of life, right? Anyhow, it was my year to pick out the Hallmark Ornament so I just had to get this one. Doug gets to pick next year (or maybe it will be Rebekah's turn! I HOPE!) Doug and I started this tradition the year we married and it is so much fun to take out the ornaments each year and remember the years we got the others! Yes, our family is big on tradition!

Monday, December 15, 2008

We Put Up Our Tree Tonight

Well, we put the tree up tonight. No baby to enjoy it with. How many more times will we have to do this?????????

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

4 STUPID DAYS!

Well it is official....China made it only through Feb. 23rd. Two of the days were weekend days so they don't count so that means China only did FOUR FREAKING DAYS of referrals for the whole month. My question is, why are they increasing fees but not increasing the number of referrals they do? I honestly think that they want to eventually shut the program down and not have international families adopt their children. I really do. I think this whole ordeal is China's way of phasing out adoptions. We have been waiting FOREVER! When we first started this ordeal, couples would get a referral 6 months after sending their paperwork to China. NOW, there's no end in sight to the waiting! We have been waiting 32 months (over 5 times the wait it used to be!) ARGH! Yes, I'm venting tonight. I'm so tired of WANTING to be a mom and having to wait on this crap! I've told myself over and over and over that "the wait will be worth it," until I am sick of telling myself that and I'm sick of hearing it from other people. The wait is sickening, disheartening, and just crap crap crap! I've tried to think that maybe I'm supposed to learn to be patient through all of this (seeking to find some profound life lesson amid all the crap).....but you know what? It's CRAP! Plain and simple.....you can put bows and lace on a pile of crap and it's still crap........
Ok, now I'm dying laughing reading this stupid post.......geez......I'm losing my freaking mind! hahahahahahahahahahahaha
What do I say now????? There's no words of encouragement that even sound plausible anymore......
The other day I told Doug that I was sick of thinking, dreaming, hoping, whatever, whatever, whatever about the adoption. It is what it is and no amount of worrying, fretting, etc. is going to make it happen until it happens.....IF it happens. So......we wait.......and know that.....oh good golly......we know nothing......crap!

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Not Doing It

I sat here today and thought about putting up Christmas decorations and a tree and all the fa la la la stuff.....I just can't do it.....I can't do another Christmas with no baby. I hope China is happy!

Friday, December 05, 2008

Today Is Our LID-iversary

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Need I say more? What's that old saying, "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all?" I better just shut up then.

Friday, November 28, 2008

I Learned Something New!


I have always wanted to know how to make bows that would look professionally done. Wednesday we got early at school and a bunch of teacher-friends got together and had the "bow-making Queen, Donna" teach us how to make these beautiful bows! She makes them and insisted that she could teach us! I had tried before years ago and my bows looked HORRIBLE, but Donna was GREAT and taught us ALL how to do it like a pro! Today I put mine on a wreath that I put together and hung on our front door. I'm pretty darn happy with how it turned out and I might make another one to tie around our mailbox! It's always fun to learn a new craft!!!! Let me know what you think!

This Is Soooooooooooooo True In Our House!


Everyone that knows us, KNOWS how much we spoil our cats so when I saw this little plaque today while shopping, I showed Doug and we both KNEW we had to get it for our house!In case you can't read it from the picture, it says, "Dogs have owners; cats have staff!" hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving!


Well, tomorrow is Thanksgiving.....another one without our baby Rebekah. Oh do I dare say it???? I can't believe I'm going to say it.......here goes.........maybe this will be our last Thanksgiving without our baby! Ok, there, I said it.....
hahahahahahahahahaha. Actually I have a lot to be thankful for even though we don't have her. I have a loving Heavenly Father who has blessed me with a home, family, a loving husband, a job I love, my talents and abilities, good friends, pets who love me unconditionally, this beautiful country where I am free to be who I am, my friends I have met in the adoption community, my religion that gives me hope and strength in trials, my health, all the luxuries that we enjoy and often take for granted, and many many more things that are blessings in my life. I hope that by this time next year, we will have the blessing of a daughter in our lives and that we will be enjoying being parents!!!! So......with that said.......I will try to look on the bright side of things and not dwell on what I don't have, but instead on what I DO have. Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!!!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

WE KNOW OUR SECRET PALS!






Well after all these many many months of being spoiled rotten by our Secret Pals, we FINALLY know their identity.........Kelly and Joseph Shook! We got the final package of goodies yesterday and couldn't WAIT to see who they were.......
They sent us so much stuff! Kelly made me a scrapbook for Rebekah and included a travel checklist,a travel book about China, an ornament with a plane/globe, a Chinese purse, learning Mandarin CD's, a panda, Shaoey and Dot book, a notebook that has a beautiful Chinese silk cover, and pictures of the two of them. How can possibly thank two people who have become our friends over all these months? There just aren't really any words that can let them know how much their thoughtfulness has meant. Even those months when we were discouraged and felt like dropping out, they would send us anonymous letters of encouragement and support. They have truly touched our lives and now that the Secret Pal program is over, we can move on and be great friends with them as we continue to wait for our babies AND after we become parents and raise our girls! Thank you Kelly and Joe!!!!!!!!! We just had to say THANKS!!!!!!!!!! And YES, we are going to STAY friends!!!!!

Monday, November 17, 2008

A Lifelong Goal/Dream Achieved!


Ok, this may sound silly but I'm going to post it anyway because I am so proud of myself AND shocked that I achieved something that has been a goal, dream, and New Year's resolution for my entire life! Don't laugh too hard when you read this......I have grown my fingernails! hahahahahahahahaha Yep, I have the cutest little nails and they are longer than I have EVER had! I have always had the bad, ugly, disgusting habit of being a nailbiter and no matter how hard I tried and how many tricks I tried, I could not stop more than a week or two. Now I have been going almost 2 months and haven't bitten my nails! Don't ask me how I did it. I honestly don't know. I didn't even TRY to stop. I just noticed about a month ago that I had some little nubs of nails that I hadn't bitten in about 2 weeks and then I just kept going. I wish losing weight and exercising was that easy! hahahahahahahahaha I'll have to take a picture of my little nails so you can see my progress.....let's just hope I don't post it and then go nuts and bite them all off! hahahahahaha Actually they are pretty darn thick so I don't think I'll be biting the darn things now....I might break a tooth!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Renewing Fingerprints AGAIN!

Well, tonight we are staying in Durham so we can get our fingerprints done first thing in the morning. This will be our THIRD time doing fingerprints for INS....maybe the "third time is a charm." We can hope can't we? Anyhow.....just wanted to post this so that one day Rebekah can see all that we have done to get through this journey that hopefully will end with her being placed in our arms....then the new journey will begin with us being a FAMILY. Gosh, I hope it happens soon! Will 2009 be our year????? Or will China slow down even more???? They only did two days this month.....how much slower can they get???? Do I dare even SAY that???? Oh well.............

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

LID-iversary #31

Oh good gosh.....why do I even bother to post these anymore? I can see me one day posting "LID-iversary #183".......I can't even explain what I'm feeling right now sitting here typing this .........geez! And then today I read that CCAA might have only done TWO FREAKING DAYS of referrals for the month.......what is their excuse NOW??? I think I need to just close this post before I say something really ugly...

Friday, October 31, 2008

Another Halloween....No Baby To Dress Up


Today Doug said, "Well this will be our last Halloween without little Rebekah." Oh gosh how many times have we said that??? How many Halloweens have been "our last one without Rebekah?" I just won't believe it until I have her in my arms and she's dressed up in a costume to go trick-or-treating. Happy Halloween to everyone and let's hope and pray that CCAA hurries up and matches us to our babies. I think we've all endured enough.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Marching Pandas Bandanas


Yesterday I received the two Marching Pandas bandannas that my friend, and fellow adoptive parent, Tonja made for us. She and another adoptive mom volunteered to make them for our DTC (Documents To China) Yahoo Group. They are so cute. When I took them out of the bag, it really hit me that our turn to get our daughter WILL be coming in a few months (of course we still don't have a clue when it will happen). Some people are saying early Spring but I'm betting we go in the summer when it will be 125 degrees in Guangzhou! Everything else has been hard about this adoption so why would it work out that we travel when the temperatures are cool??? Oh well....we WILL go whenever we get a match and we'll endure the temperatures no matter what.
Thanks to Tonja for the lovely bandannas!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

WE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, democracy is alive and well! After signing a petition, writing letters to Congressman Goode and Senator Webb, we FINALLY found out today that Immigration has changed the rules and will be letting us renew the I600A instead of having to fill out the dreadful I800A. The I800A would require a brand new homestudy, updated medicals AGAIN, background checks from EVERY place we have lived since we were 18 years old, and MOUNDS of paperwork! The process for the I600A is MUCH easier and smoother! When I got the news I just sat here and CRIED! Thank goodness something worked out! Now if China would only speed up and get us matched with our girls! Thanks to all my friends and family who signed the petition and prayed for us about this matter! Love you all!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

CCAA Referrals

Well, the CCAA has matched families logged in before February 15, 2006. We are LID April 5, 2006 so we continue to wait indefinitely. They have to finish Feb. and then March and THEN it will be our turn since we are in the first week of April 2006. On goes the wait..........

Sunday, October 05, 2008

30 MONTH LID-iversary

This SUCKS!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

"Bear-y" Wonderful Goodies From Our Secret Pals!


Well, the time is winding down on our Secret Pal Activity and next month will be the LAST month that we will receive goodies from our pals. Now you have to realize that when this whole Secret Pal thing started, we were thinking it would last about 6-8 months, we'd get some cute stuff for Rebekah, give some cute stuff to another couple for their baby, meet some nice people on this adoption journey, and that would be about all it was to it. Boy, were WE WRONG! hahahahahahahahahahaha Our steadfast and dedicated pals who give to us EVERY SINGLE month go WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY above and beyond what the activity calls for. They have spoiled us absolutely ROTTEN! They know what we like, what we need, and they always manage to find the cutest things for Rebekah! They have also spoiled our feline babies with many many toys and hours of enjoyment! They have remembered our birthdays, our anniversary, and sent us anonymous emails when they read our blog and saw that we were discouraged or going through a rough patch! They sent toys, clothes, books, dolls, etc. for Rebekah and then turned around and sent us CD's, giftcards for our favorite restaurants, ornaments, etc. just for us. They have stuck with us for almost 30 MONTHS! GOOD GOLLY!!!!!!!!!!! Their notes and cards and emails are always full of encouragement and love and those have been read and re-read and saved in Rebekah's little diary for her to read one day. Mrs. Secret Pal even knitted or crocheted (I can't tell which) a BEAUTIFUL blanket for our baby girl to one day snuggle under! When I took THAT one out of the box, I must admit that I cried like a baby! To think of all the hours and work that she put into that JUST FOR OUR BABY, meant the world to me! And now we are sitting here knowing that next month, we will find out who this wonderful couple is! It is exciting to know that we will find have an identity to put with all of this love and thoughtfulness that they have bestowed on us! I am SURE we will remain close friends forever!!!!!!!!!! They have become a part of our lives and so many things they sent to us for Rebekah will be part of her childhood and part of the memories that we create with her!
So.........with all that said, let me get on to thanking them profusely for the goodies in this month's box. The theme was "Bears" and they sent a panda backpack and matching panda lunchbox for Rebekah to use when she goes to school one day, a bear puzzle book, a white blanket with a bear embroidered on it, several little things from Build-A-Bear along with this red-white-and-blue outfit for the Build A Bear that they gave us months ago (it was dressed in a Chinese outfit), a silk handkerchief with embroidered pandas on it, and a Kent State bottle/bib/rattle set (we are guessing they are graduates of Kent State and may be from Ohio???????) Anyhow, we were just blown away by everything and wanted to let them know how much we love it all and say THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

My Two Little "Chicks"





Yes, we are the weird pet parents who buy Halloween costumes for our cats! hahahahahaha We were in Target tonight and found this funny little chicken head for the girls........so ENJOY......don't die laughing! Thank goodness our girls are "good sports!" Of course the looks they are giving me could kill!

Doug's Birthday.....Hopefully next year we'll have Rebekah!












Doug had his birthday surprises today! What fun! We went out to dinner at Texas Steakhouse and then came home so he could open gifts. His birthday cake was a Harry Potter cake! It was either that or Indiana JOnes! hahahahahahaha
Hopefully next year we will have a little one here to celebrate with us and enjoy Daddy's day with him! Happy Birthday Honey! I love you!

Friday, September 05, 2008

LID-iversary #29

Oh yea, big cause for celebration......NOT! I hate this!

Monday, September 01, 2008

NC State Dress For Rebekah!


This afternoon Doug and I just all of a sudden decided to drive down to Burlington, NC to have dinner at Cracker Barrel. It was a beautiful drive and the meal was great (they even had the Double Chocolate Coca-Cola Cake that I love so much!). Afterwards we were looking around in the little store they have and found the CUTEST NC State Wolfpack Dress! The matching bloomers have the little wolf mascot on each booty-cheek! hahahahahahahahahahaha It is in the NC State Wolfpack colors: Red, White, Black! What a cute little dress. The smallest size they had was a 2T so I'm sure she will have to grow into it, but what a cute little dress! It was a fun and relaxing Labor Day. Now it's back to work tomorrow!

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Another School Year......

Well, we have started a new school year. This marks the FOURTH school year since we started the China Adoption. And I can't help but wonder if we will get our daughter this year? I think when it finally happens, we won't believe it at all! I can see us standing in China being handed a baby and still not believing it. I miss the excitement I used to feel about the whole process. It's been so long and drawn out that I never feel excited about it anymore. I simply don't. I guess that's the way my heart protects itself......I'm scared to get excited or to even look forward to it in case it doesn't happen. It will be easier to take. On Sept. 5....it will be our 29th month of waiting! No end in sight. At least those darn Olympics are over! Now let's see if they speed up.......oh that's a big laugh.....can you detect the sarcasm????? For YEARS we've heard over and over......"AFter __________________________ (some event), the CCAA is going to speed up referrals." Yea, right! We used to believe it and get all excited as each event came and went, but now we have wised up and realized that it's just some sick joke to them to keep us waiting. But still we wait.......

Monday, August 18, 2008

Letter I Sent To Congressman Virgil Goode

I was sitting here tonight thinking about our I171H expiring in April 2009 and how we already used our one free extension. Doug had called INS and talked to them about whether or not we could get a second free extension but was told that we would have to file the I800A this time and pay the fees all over. That just doesn't seem fair at all and then I thought, "Susan, just write to your representatives and see if you can make a difference in this whole situation." It worked the first time so maybe they can pass some sort of legislation and get another free extension. You never know. As the old saying goes, "Nothing makes a failure except not trying." So, I wrote this letter to him and then wrote a similar one to our senator, Senator Jim Webb. Yep, I'm an optimist!


Dear Congressman Goode,
I am one of your supporters and am asking for your help with something. My husband, Doug, and I are adopting from China. We have been involved with this process for over 3 years and still do not have our baby girl. We are continuing to hang in there and do all that we can to make this dream of ours come true. We really do want to have a family and have tried to adopt through Social Services but have never been given a child to love and take care of. That is why we turned to the international adoption program. Back in September 2000, I was diagnosed with cancer and cannot have a biological child of my own but I KNOW that I am supposed to be a mother! I am also a school teacher in Danville Public Schools and while I love my students tremendously, I know that I want to be a mother to my own child. My husband, Doug, is going to be a tremendous father too! The problem we have is that our own government is going to make us renew our I171H (with Immigration) and that in itself will cost us another $700. The first time we filed the I600A and paid the fees for the form and the fees for the fingerprinting we knew that it was a required step and we did it without hesitation. Well, the China process continued to slow down and the Chinese have stretched a wait that was supposed to be 6 months long into a wait that we have had to endure for almost 29 months with many months left to go. During that time our I171H expired but by that time Congress had changed the rules with the form and we could get a free extension of the form! OH HAPPY DAY! We didn't have to pay for the extension and we were elated! It will now last through April 2009, but the predictions for us getting matched with our daughter does not look positive and we are afraid that the I171H will once again expire and now we will have to file the new form I800A and pay the over $700 fee. We are writing to you to see if you can somehow bring this issue before Congress and discuss maybe a second free extension. Nothing has changed with us except we are a little older (I'll soon be 41 and Doug will be 36) but we are still healthy, both still working, and both STILL wanting this baby so very much! This wait has been so hard for us and there were many times when we were tempted to throw in the towel, but we both know that there is a baby that is going to be OURS and we will be her parents. We know that once we get her, this wait will be a memory (kind of like when a woman endures labor pains and forgets about the pain once she holds her baby). I just don't see the justification in making us pay more money when the whole delay is not our fault. We are hard-working, honest people whose only desire is to love and raise a baby. Shouldn't our government be proud to have citizens like that? Shouldn't someone out there be representing us and supporting us in this wholesome endeavor that we are in? We certainly don't feel like the Chinese government has been very supportive or caring, but isn't there anyone in the U.S. government who can hear our pleas and be on our side? There are THOUSANDS of us in the adoption community who have banded together during this long wait and who are pressing forward with the same ultimate goal in mind. We need to know that our representatives, such as yourself, hear us and are willing to reach out and help us. Someone, somewhere along the line did help when they passed the regulations to allow us the first free extension. Surely, they can do it again. I personally think that once you pay for the first I171H, you shouldn't have to pay to do another one as long as you are still going for that same child. We have not changed our course. The length of the course has changed, but that is not our fault. Can you PLEASE help us with this????? Can you please be the one to get the ball rolling on this???? Maybe I am an optimist who believes that I can sit here and write my Congressman a letter and it WILL make a difference. I'm asking you to please show me that my optimism is not in vain. PLEASE!!!!
Sincerely and respectfully,
Mrs. Susan P. Appleton

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Doug Got Us Cell Phones!


Today Doug went out for a bit and when he came back he had gotten us cell phones! hahahahahahahahahaha Oh Lord, it is going to take me FOREVER to learn how to use this thing. I haven't had a cell phone in five years! This one has a keyboard for text messaging and a camera! How in the WORLD do you use that?????? He has his all figured out and has been using it but mine is still charging! It's so cute and it's PURPLE! hahahahahahaha Doug said that we're going to eventually need it when we have Rebekah and he feels better knowing I have it in case of an emergency! What a sweet hubby! He is DEFINITELY more technologically advanced than I am though.

Monday, August 11, 2008

CCAA Made It Through 1/31/06!!!!!

Well, at first we heard that CCAA only matched referrals through 1/27/06 which would have only been 2 days worth of referrals, but our agency emailed tonight and said that the OFFICIAL word is that they made it through 1/31/06! YAY! Of course now they are closed until after the stinking Olympics so next month probably won't see any referrals being made (I think). But at least they FINISHED January 2006 and the first few days of February will be freebies because they were out on vacation due to Chinese New Year that year being those days so they didn't have in LIDs. So hopefully they will get on through February quickly. Once they finish February, then we have to endure March and THEN, they will get to our dossier in the first week of April 2006 (04/05/06). So....we'll keep hanging in there and hopefully they will REALLY speed up after the Olympics!

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Bawling Like A Baby

Well, I sat here and watched the Steven Curtis Chapman family on Larry King Live.....oh my gosh.....what a TOUCHING and faith-affirming experience! I have cried for the whole hour! I bawled like a baby when they told the story about finding her artwork that she did the morning of the accident. She had drawn a flower that had six petals but had only colored one. They have six children and Steven said that when he went home with one of his sons after she died, to get some clothes for the memorial service, they kept saying aloud to God, "Please let us SEE your purpose in this, please let us see that she is ok and she's whole and she's happy." And then they found the picture she had drawn. Only one petal was colored WHOLE and under the flower she had written in crayon the word, "SEE", like she was saying, "See, I'm ok." Oh my gosh, I am STILL crying just thinking about it! The Chapman family explained it as a little "breadcrumb" that God gives to us to let us know that things are ok and things are going as HE plans it! I thought of our adoption and this HORRIBLE wait that we are having to endure and I KNOW that it is NOTHING compared to the grief that the beautiful Chapman family has had to endure. I guess this Larry King show was a little "breadcrumb" for me to let me KNOW that Heavenly Father knows what he's doing and that we will see our baby's face when the time is right. Now I'm not promising that I won't have some rough moments as we continue to wait, but I feel very strengthened by this show and just the faith that family showed. (Yep, still sitting here sobbing). So, with that said, I just pray that Heavenly Father will continue to bless this family in their grieving hearts and may he bless them for sharing their story and seeking to give hope and comfort to everyone who saw it! My faith was certainly strengthened! God bless them and all of you who read it!
Love to you all!
Susan

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

LID #28

Big whoop-dee-do here! NOT!

Monday, August 04, 2008

NOT A GOOD DAY!

Well, since this is MY blog and I can say whatever I want to say and vent any feelings that I am having.....here goes.......
We are in the process of updating our freaking homestudy and tonight I got TWO emails from the social worker who is supposedly working on our "simple and painless" update. She keeps asking me if we are working on a concurrent adoption with Danville Social Services. I have NO earthly idea why she would think that we are doing that. My gosh, do I just have IDIOT stamped across my forehead? Would I REALLY adopt a child through Social Services at this point and time in our China Adoption Process KNOWING full well that if we did, we would have to wait another YEAR before we could accept a referral from China??????????????? OH MY GOD! GET REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wrote to her the first time and told her no, we had worked with social services BEFORE we got involved with China, but once we started on our dossier, we closed our file with the social services. Plus, social services had never given us a child in the first place after we worked with them for two years, so we had given up on that route before we even switched to China. But, then she writes me again asking if we are working with Social Services.........ok, at this point, I got hot! Doug is talking about calling a lawyer because last year when we updated the homestudy, nothing was ever even mentioned about all of this, and now it seems to be some sort of issue that we have NO CLUE about the origins of. Plus, she stood in our livingroom during her visit and told us that all of our background checks, criminal checks, etc. had come back EXCEPT my fingerprints were messed up and I would have to redo them at the police station which I did once they sent me the new card. Tonight, she emails me and says we're missing some of those things in our file........WHAT THE HECK????????? I feel like I'm being jerked around and not being told the truth about the stuff. I hate that feeling. We had that happen to us with our first social worker who took 23 weeks to complete our homestudy when it was SUPPOSED to be a 6-8 week process. We could have been logged in by December 2005 had it not been for this person and we could have our baby by now. We explained that to this new social worker and asked her to please help make this process a positive experience.........I guess that was a waste of my breath. It just seems like EVERY STEP of this adoption is made to be harder than it should be. I just started a new school year, had one sleep last night, and now I have to deal with THIS. It's not fair to be treated this way after everything we have been through. 29 FREAKING HELLISH months of waiting and now we have to endure questions that make no sense at all and a social worker that won't listen when we plainly tell her that we are NOT adopting from Social Services.....how much plainer can I make that??????????? I have called our China Coordinator and the agency rep. and left them messages, but no one is in the office to call us back at this moment so I'm trying to hang in there until I can talk to one of them tomorrow. And now it is almost 10:00pm and I still have a pile of work to do. I have tears in my eyes just flowing out of frustration and impatience with the whole situation. This is MY blog so I can vent here and get it out of my system. If we don't get some answers soon, we'll be visiting a lawyer. Maybe then they will take care of our case like they should.

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Security Blankey For Rebekah


Well, over the summer, I sat down and made Rebekah a little security blankey with little taggies (to keep her little hands/mind busy). It is actually made of soft flannel and quilt batting inside. The little taggies are securely sewn on the inside and the outside. I have noticed a few newly adopted children who love their blankies so I decided to make her one. It's about 12 inches X 12 inches and was a lot of fun to make. I might make an identical one to send to her one day in a care package before we go to China. It really was fun to make.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Updated Our Homestudy: THIRD TIME!

Well, our social worker came for our homestudy update visit. She's nice but I just am tired of updating paperwork with no end in sight. Found out that my VA fingerprints at the police station here in Danville did not work so now they are sending me the card to go BACK to the police station and do it again.........everything that CAN go wrong DOES go wrong in this whole adoption mess........I'm not in a chipper mood today. I want it OVER and I want my BABY!

Saturday, July 19, 2008

A Quote I Found Today

The moment a child is born(adopted)
the mother is also born.
She never existed before.
The woman existed, but the mother, never.
A mother is something absolutely new.
~Rajneesh

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Thanks To Our Awesome Secret Pals!


















































Our ever-faithful secret pals sent us TWO boxes of goodies today! One box contained things related to the "birthday theme" including a birthday shirt, the book, Every Year On YOur Birthday, an autographed copy of the beautiful book Made In China, and a cute little memory book to keep track of each birthday. Oh we loved loved loved all of the stuff they picked out for us! The shirt is sooooooooooooooooooooooo adorable and I love the autographed book! Thank you for having it autographed "To Rebekah"! That is so thoughtful of you!!!!!!!!
The second box went with the theme, "Games To Play." and Pooh Memory, a little backpack with card games such as Go Fish, Doggie Match, etc., a Toys R-Us Travel pack with little games and activities, and the book, Pat-A-Cake And Other Games. You guys are just plain awesome! We are always surprised by what you pick out for us each month and the love you put in to each month's goody box! Thank you so very very very very much!!! We also loved the card and we offer our support during your "trying" time! Our agency also shut down and we have had to be moved over to their "sister" agency. We've been updated our homestudy that runs out at the end of the month and all the paperwork and physicals that go with that. Hang in there! I know we hear this all the time and sometimes just want to SCREAM if we hear it one more time, but I'm sure it "will all be worth it in the end when they place those babies in our arms." (Gosh I can't believe I just said that to someone!). Hang in there our dear dear secret pals!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, July 13, 2008

New Fashions For Rebekah!




Well, Friday (July 11, 2008) I was at the mall just browsing and walking around after I finished my teacher workshop. I found a mega sale on summer baby clothes at J.C. Penney and just had to buy something. Of course I was careful not to spend a lot and I even bought size 12 month so Rebekah will be able to grow into these things eventually. I got a little summery looking onesie that is so adorable and a BEAUTIFUL blue seersucker top with matching pantaloons that has ladybugs on it! HOW ADORABLE! I don't buy a lot of baby clothes because I really want to wait until we get her and know her sizes and everything but every now and then I will see something adorable and just have to buy it.....yep, it's that mommybird "nesting" instinct that kicks in! hahahaha

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Lunch With The Shelton Family Today!

Well, today Doug and I drove down to Burlington, NC to meet The Shelton Family for lunch at The Cracker Barrel. What a wonderful time we had getting to know Tonja, Robbie, and their daughter, Caitlin! We had a great time getting to talk face to face with the friends that we made online and it is great knowing that they are only about 45 minutes south of us! Now if only we had been able to get Flissy and Mike to drive north! hahahahahahahahahaha

27th LID-iversary

Well today marks the 27th month that we have waited for China to match us with a baby........27 FREAKING MONTHS! No end in sight....as we speak they have made it up to Jan. 20, 2006 and we are April 5, 2006. Who KNOWS when they will get to our paperwork! I hate this wait more than I've ever hated anything in my life! It's stupid to make people wait this long to be parents. But, we're even crazier because we continue to wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait........about the only thing we're parents to is dust-covered dossier sitting somewhere in China and a new pile of paperwork that we're having to renew now for the THIRD time. It makes me want to puke just thinking about it!

Friday, July 04, 2008

Happy Stinking 4th of July

Another holiday...no baby...

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Chelsea's 2nd Birthday





Well, today was our little cat, Chelsea's, birthday....she is two years! You can see that both Savannah (the gray cat) and Tabitha (the Calico) enjoyed her presents too! She really LOVED her soft mat that Doug got her (once Savannah got off of it!). Her favorite thing was her Tuna/Chicken Fancy Feast "Cake"! Yes, we are crazy about our cats! Can you just imagine how crazy we're going to be over a BABY?????????

Happy Canada's Day!

July 1st is Canada's Day which for them is equivalent to our Fourth of July! So happy birthday Canada and I hope all of our family (on Doug's side) has an enjoyable and safe holiday!!!!
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Sunday, June 29, 2008

Jin Jin The Dragon





















Today we rode down to Greensboro, NC to see a presentation by Carolina Adoption Services. They had the author, Grace Chang, there reading from her children's book, Jin Jin, the Dragon. She is also an illusionist and did a little magic show with the kids and had the puppet of Jin Jin there. It was a GREAT little show and we bought the EXCELLENT book which talks about the journey to discovering your own identity. What a super lesson for not only kids, but adults as well! We totally enjoyed it! We bought a copy of the book and she graciously autographed it to Rebekah! It was also great to see other families there with their Chinese children! It renewed our faith that we will soon have our Rebekah!
P.S. Her book is for sale at bookstores too and the website for her is www.changimagination.com

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Referral Countdown Calendar!


Well today I did something that I have been waiting to do for a long long time! I made a Countdown To Rebekah's Referral Calendar to post on our refrigerator. A lot of people make these and cross out the days to their LID is given referrals. I just couldn't bring myself to do this until the CCAA at least got into the same year of LID. Since our LID is 04/05/06 I have a heart on that date and have put an X on the days that have been processed for referrals. Rumors are that they are already processing referrals even though usually we don't hear any news like this until around the 5th of each month. Rumors also say that they are covering more days than ever this time so I'm hoping and praying they get through a HUGE numbers of days so I can cross out a LOT of dates. I decorated our calendar with ladybugs and even had the cats there helping me by walking across the stickers! hahahahahahahahaha So, it's UP on the refrigerator and I'm a little excited about seeing the X's getting closer!

New Book


This is a new book that I got today from the author, Phil Wong. He sent me a copy of his beautiful book, The Little Girl, for FREE! For some reason, I got an email from him telling about this book and saying that the first 20 people who responded to his email would get a free copy. WOW! What a beautiful book! Thanks to Mr. Wong!!!!

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Another School Year Has Come And Gone......Still No Rebekah


Well, this is the THIRD school year that we have been through since starting the China adoption and still we wait and have no baby Rebekah. My students asked me last week, "Mrs. Appleton, when are you going to get your baby?" hahahahahahaha Good question! In about 5 weeks I will be starting another school year.....I wonder if it will happen THIS year??????
Anyhow......life goes on and I suppose it will happen whenever......here's a little poem that my friend Fliss had on her blog that made me smile....I guess we all need little pick-me-ups to get us through life. Thanks Fliss!

Sunday, June 15, 2008

T.J. Bearytales


Ok, today we went to Toys Are Us and had a ball looking at toys and picking out a few! hahahahahahahahahaha What fun! One of the toys we got for Rebekah is a little bear called, T.J. Bearytales. He is this electronic bear that reads stories. The books are so cute and when T.J. reads them, he moves his ears and eyes, and arms and is REALLY animated! The stories are fun, imaginative, and I must admit that we bought 2 books and I have already listened to them both. He also has songs and games with each book and the book cartridges slide into this backpack that he has on his back. It is just plum adorable!!!! We had seen this bear about a year ago and added him to our Toys Are Us Baby Registry and at the time he cost over $50 but they have him on clearance now for $19.99! They only had two left in the store and we got one plus two of the storybooks/cartridges which were $4.98. So.....if any of you out there are looking for a toy that encourages literacy, imaginative play, and is just adorable, then rush out to your Toys Are Us and get this! As a teacher I tend to evaluate toys a little closer and look for the educational value in toys more than most people and this is just GREAT!

Happy Father's Day Douggie!

Well, today we celebrated Father's Day....another one without baby Rebekah, but we KNOW that she will one day be in our arms and Doug will be her Father! What a wonderful man I have married to be the father of our daughter! Doug is going to be such a great father because he truly WANTS to be a daddy, and amazingly he wants to be a daddy to a little girl! I can just see him as her hero, and she will have him wrapped around her little finger like most little girls do their daddies and he will LOVE it! So....here's to you honey, you know I love you so much and there's no one else I would ever want to be married to or share a baby with than you! You are my best friend and together we will be parents soon to a little one that is going to be loved more than any baby has ever been loved! Happy Father-To-Be Day!!!!

Monday, June 09, 2008

Hats From Our Secret Pals!




For the month of May, the theme for the Secret Pals Exchange was "Hats Off To Baby" and we were to send hats and stuff related to that. We got our little box of goodies today and had a ball seeing the hats that our secret pals picked out for Rebekah to wear one day. There was a purple/white ball cap, a pink crocheted hat, a lilac woven hat, a winter black/white hat with mittens, and the cutest little pink floppy hat! Then they had extended the "hat theme" by purchasing two children's books about hats.....one being The Cat In The Hat! hahahahahahahaha How cute!!!!!! Mr. and Mrs. Secret Pal KNOW how much we love children's books! Rebekah is going to have the BEST collection of books to love and enjoy!!!!Thank you so much Mr. and Mrs. Secret Pal! You guys are the best!!!! I can't believe that we have had the same pals since we first started this Secret Pal exchange and they know EXACTLY what to send!!!!!!! You guys are awesome and we love you so much!!! I have decided to start on a special project just for Mr. and Mrs. Secret Pal so that in the end, we will have something from our hearts to give back to them just to let them know how much we love them and appreciate all that they have done for us through all these months of waiting and enduring. Their friendship has meant a LOT to us!!!